The Soundtrack of My Life
I often hear a song and think “yes, this belongs in this soundtrack of my life” – so I figured it was time to start putting pen to paper on this and figuring out what the heck that actually meant.
When it comes to music, I am still a 15-year-old girl. I will play the hell out of a song and let it push through my soul a thousand times over. What can I say, I’m a masochist. I love a good gut-ripping song. Lately, there have been two – “Let Her Go” by Passenger and “Wake Me Up” by Avicii / Aloe Blacc. I like a little drama.
The first time I fell in “love” – wasn’t really love but my first real brush with its potential – it was the summer of “Red Red Wine” by UB 40 and “Groovy Kind of Love” by Phil Collins. While these songs didn’t crush my soul, whenever I hear them I’m 15 again and can remember every sight, sound, touch, and smell of that summer.
When my husband started dating, it was the holidays of 2005 and the first time (!) I heard Joni Mitchell’s “River.” Not sure how I got that far in life without hearing this gem, but it has never left me. I also got my first lesson in Tom Waits who is still a mainstay in our home.
But the first time I heard “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol, the world stopped spinning. It captured every feeling I had about Ryan – my first and last big, real love. It was like that moment where life goes from black and white to color…
If I lay here, If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told, Before we get too old, Show me a garden that’s bursting into life
The connection to that song was only made more perfect by its starring role in Ryan’s proposal to me (lake at Central Park, a surprise violinist, you get the idea). And the most amazing part? This song finds me during such moments of doubt and uncertainty and literally pulls me back in reminding me of the things that matter most.
A few others for the list would include:
- “Angel in a Centerfold” by the J. Geils Band – the first time we forced my mom to drive us to the mall for a 45 record.
- “Crucify” by Tori Amos – only one person knows the significance of this song and she has been sworn to secrecy.
- “Because of You” by Kelly Clarkson – every guy that broke my heart knows why.
I would be remiss to talk about the soundtrack of my life without mentioning Springsteen. It started in seventh grade and has never stopped. No one has the heart and soul of Bruce. But what I love about his music most is that I share this passion with my other soul mate in life, my mom. It’s given us a lot of great memories over the years and endeared us to many fellow fans who have had no choice but to become lifelong friends. And the ride is still not over.
Things That I’m Obsessing Over Right Now:
- The three unread issues of the New Yorker calling my name
- The two books on my nightstand
- My girl’s trip to NYC next weekend
- Breaking Bad (Episode 7, Season 2, No Spoilers!)
- The hot mess that my closet has become
- My search for the best eye cream